feywood: Merlin in the woods (Default)
Mental health not so awesome lately. I don't know if it's just the SAD combining with default depression to make my usual wintertime mega-villain or something else. There's enough to pick from.
I almost had a screaming fit at work today as there was more brexit related government upheaval. I'm angry, frustrated and powerless. It's a constant grinding nausea that we can't escape.

And of course there's Christmas stress. I have most presents sorted out if not wrapped, except I have a week to go and I'm only just over halfway on making this present so it's... well stressing me out, really. Must just keep plugging away, not much else to do about it.
Well. That and this bit of cake I have. That's helping too.
feywood: Dean Winchester with a mouth full of food ((Dean) food!)

and tumblr dies a fiery death, haha. Ah, fandom migrations.

I live in England now
It's not terrible (kidding, it's neat, I'm having fun)

I need new icons. Are there still icon journals out there? I do wonder. But I do need something that reflects current interests.

The rabbits are multiplying (not how you think). There are four now. Cutest little assholes.
feywood: Arthur looks shocked ((Arthur) shocked)
I'm in the middle of exams now and it's exhausting and I really, very much, truly dislike group projects. Utterly.
Getting someone else's point of view can be annoying but this is just.... exhausting. Ah well, one over with and the second one to be handed in Monday. We'll see. I'm doing my share, anyhow.

The new job is definitely proving interesting. I'm strangely independent in my work. Strangely in the sense that I'm very much not used to it. I've spent the last 6 odd years working in operational. Leaving it is. Well it's a shock to the system, but one I'm enjoying. I'm getting to do some fun things even as my to do list is ever expanding.

Holiday period was good. First Christmas spent with the in-laws and really one of the better ones I've had in the last years.
It's strange that, eleven years into the relationship, I'm still somewhat unsure of where I stand with the in-laws re: them accepting my presence, but this definitely helped. I think the chocolate did to.

Because we never really know each other as well as we think, in response to this post I'd like you to ask a question. Anything about which you are curious, anything you feel you ought to know about me. Silly, serious, personal, fannish. Ask away.


Sep. 9th, 2016 10:29 am
feywood: robert downey jr in lotus position ((robert downey jr) yoga)
I've been thinking a lot about getting bag into blogging. A means of venting, keep a trace of my life, don't know, want to give it a try again. I mean, it's only been two years, right?

Where am I in my life right now?
- married (yes, to [personal profile] shanaqui )
- not in customer support anymore, now doing internal tech support. I liked it, I put up with it, I hate it
- second year of a degree in software dev
- medicated

That's all there is to it, really.
I've been on the meds for a while now and it has really helped. My brain's more stable, I'm much less agressive, more able to be social when it's required of me.
Classes are a joy (even if night classes on top of work wear me out like nobody's business) and it's nice to occasionally be reminded that maybe I'm not entirely as dumb as I sometimes feel.
Work is horrible (has it ever not been), but I'm soon changing to a test engineer function, so that a. takes me entirely out of support and I won't have to plug people vga cables in anymore and b. might actually be interesting and I'll learn some stuff. It's not all sunshine, there's more people side things that I'm not a fan of, but it's a step up, no doubt.

Being married is lovely, it's been a whole month already and it's still amazing. I get to have a nikki around all the time now and that is the best, no kidding. A nikki and a bunny and it's all good.

More soon, yes.
feywood: Tony Stark looks lost ((Tony) lost boy)
I'm aliiiiive
Depression is a cruel mistress so I've spent a lot of time eating tinned and microwaved meals, but I'm back and at it again.

I realise kidney isn't for everyone, but what you need to know is you're wrong and it's delicious.

kidney and mushrooms in red wine sauce )
feywood: Angel Coulby made a whoopsy ((Angel) whoops)
Ahaha hello I am still alive. :)

No pictures about this one as I only realised "omg I should post this" as I was eating.

So let's make this quick and dirty.

Whole grain pasta
wild asparagus (could also be spinach)
(light) cream cheese
your choice of protein. I went with the tiniest steak you've ever seen, but this could be chicken, shrimp, tofu...

Two pans
One pot.

To do:
Fill pot with water and season (olive oil and salt). Put on stove to boil. When boiling, add pasta, set timer for 1-2 minutes less than al dente.
Chop mushrooms.
Heat up pan with about two tablespoons of olive oil. Chuck in asparagus, then mushrooms (or mushrooms, then spinach). Season with salt and pepper.
In second pan, deal with your protein. Undercook it slightly.
When pasta is done, drain but reserve some of the water.
Add pasta to vegetables.
Make sure protein is bitesize (I sliced my steak afterward, but chicken or tofu could be done beforehand) and add to pan.
Add a heaped tablespoon of cream cheese (I used light philadelphia with fine herbs and garlic) and the half a cup of reserved water. Let it cook down till desired creaminess.

This took me all of twenty minutes to shove together when I realised I'd forgotten to eat, so it's definitely easy-peasy!
feywood: Dean Winchester with a mouth full of food ((Dean) food!)
I have the blahs and work was stressful and busy today (but not bad, really) and all the things and ugh depression and ugh everything else.

So have a music meme, this is amazing.

Playlist of the apocalypse

The first song is the overall theme for the Apocalypse:
Dragonforce - Valley Of The Damned.
Well. Appropriate much?

The second song is what plays when you kill your first zombie:
John Williams - A Dream Discarded (Memoirs of a Geisha OST)
Not very murdery-mayhem music, but the title works?

The third song plays when getting chased by a horde:
Creedence Clearwater Revival - Commotion
brb lolling

The fourth song plays when you have to kill your loved one:
Voltaire - Reggae Mortis
I love my ipod. no seriously, look this song up it is amazing. Voltaire is wonderful.

The fifth song plays when you find a group of survivors:
The Cranberries - Zombie
Ah. Well. Yes?

The sixth song plays when you meet a new love interest:
Paul and Storm - Your Love Is
Bwahahaha evil love interest is amazing love interest.

The seventh song plays when you have to make a final stand:
Enrique Iglesias - I Will Survive
Do not ask me why I have this.

The eight song plays when you think you've survived it all:
Disney's Pocahontas - Just Around The Riverbend
I actually watched this earlier! For the first time ever!

The ninth song plays when you discover a bite mark on you:
Edith Piaf - Non, Je Ne Regrette Rien
Also my ringtone. Unless it's family. Then it's grunty Swedish.

The tenth song plays over the end credits:
The Postal Service - Sleeping In
Not a bad choice. Not at all.

Back to the blahs for me now. Perhaps bed. I'm on call tomorrow. Fun times. If they call me before noon, heads will roll (and mine will explode).
feywood: Merlin in the woods (Default)
Title: Strawberry lemonade
Cuisine: who knows
Skill level: easy (not for children)
Time: 20 minutes
Portions: As many as you like

So I drink enormous amounts of lemonade )
feywood: Arthur Pendragon laughing ((Arthur) laughing)
Today is [personal profile] shanaqui and my seventh anniversary.
It's not one of the big numbers, but I feel it still deserves some attention.

We're both hopeless about remember anniversaries, really. We tend to forget till just the day before or, in one case, had to be reminded by [livejournal.com profile] iltaru

We met online eight years ago, roleplaying with a mutual friend.
Seven years ago, our first real life visit. One week spent together, crammed together in a tiny bedroom, being silly, laughing our asses off, working up the courage to kiss the other but both of us too scared to say anything.
But it happened and though we decided afterward that we wouldn't follow it up since it'd be too complicated, it didn't really last that long before we changed our minds and I haven't regretted that for one moment.

It hasn't always been easy.
There's still the distance between us. We don't see each other nearly often enough. We both have our issues, both mental and physical. There's stress, there's other people, there's families...
But at the same time, it's been so very, very good.
There isn't anyone in this world who knows me as well as Nikki does. There is no one in this world who has been kinder to me or who has shown me such endless patience and understanding. Who accepts my flaws, my mistakes and who appreciates me for who I am.

You will never know a better person than Nikki. Open mind, open heart and so very out of my league. There are still days I don't understand just why I'm so lucky, but I am always grateful that I kissed her, that very early morning on August 5th.
feywood: Arthur Pendragon laughing ((Arthur) laughing)
I am supposed to be getting ready for bed and my back is killing me, but this is what I'm up to right now.

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Okay so it's really hard to get any cooking done while I'm in the 2PM - 10PM shift so here's a quick and dirty post.

Title: Summer lunch: insalata caprese
Cuisine: Italian
Skill level: easy peasy
Time: 5 minutes
Portions: 1 (very easily adaptable)

I wasn't kidding when I said quick )
feywood: Merlin in the woods (Default)
Here be the list of posts I have made/planned.

I have divided these into different genres to make any titles less vague (links go to tags):
Dinner for one: whatever I make, mostly tutorial style posts
Sweet tooth: baking, also mostly tutorial style
Home cooking: storytime! Mostly about my family and food

100 )
feywood: Mary Watson ((Mary) Mary Watson)
Title: Boyfriend pasta
Cuisine: who knows
Skill level: easy
Time: 40 minutes - 1 hour
Portions: 3 (very easily adaptable)

So the reason it's called boyfriend pasta... )
feywood: Sam Winchester laughing ((Sam) laugh)
Aaand the kick-off.

Recipe time!

Title: cabbage and mince (& mash potatoes)
Cuisine: comfort food
Skill level: easy peasy
Time: 35 minutes
Portions: 2-3

This way, please )
feywood: Merlin in the woods (Default)
I don't post a lot, we all know it. I think half my posts are dedicated to mentioning that I don't post a lot.
So I'll change that.

Basically what's going to happen is I'm going to try write 100 posts about a certain topic I love. They won't all be the same, there will be pictures and things and while I know I won't post every day, it should at least make me post more regularly and, hopefully, more interestingly.

The topic?

I love cooking, I love eating, I love thinking about and contemplating food. I like making shopping lists and I love doing groceries (if there just weren't as many other people in the store at the same time).
So it'll be all about me cooking, shopping, telling you all about the tasty thing I had/saw/smelled, etc. I have all the opinions.

You are, of course, all welcome to comment, reply, tell me off or share your own views and stories. I'd actually be super happy if you did, but don't see this in any way as an obligation.

Food is love.
feywood: Arthur Pendragon laughing ((Arthur) laughing)
I have been considering this for a while and I think I'll go through with it.

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

More info and details when I'm not about to go to bed. :)
feywood: Mary Watson ((Mary) Mary Watson)
Let us bulletpoint!

  • Work: still probationing for senior position, etc, etc, all still good

  • The wedding is off. Not because we split up but because of bureaucracy nightmares. It's okay

  • I've taken up embroidery. It's fun. Slightly maddening. Good times

  • Was on citalopram, then came off it. It did nothing for my depression and killed my libido. Feeling good right now anyway so it's all fine

  • Currently off sick for a couple days on account of bad back pain. Doctor said possible slipped disc. Not sure. There might be physical therapy in my future

  • I'm watching Dark Angel. Basically I sit here salivating over Michael Weatherly and ickle Jensen Ackles

  • I totally unfucked my flat. Mostly because my landlord would be coming over, but it's as good a reason as any. I think it's part of the reason I feel okay right now

  • Have discovered [tumblr.com profile] unfuckyourhabitat. It's awesome

  • I'm still not getting a tumblr

Oh boy

Feb. 18th, 2012 11:07 pm
feywood: Merlin in the woods ((Merlin) magic)
Apparently it takes me being more than a bit tipsy to get me to post, soooo here we go.

Had dinner out with my family today. Parents, brother, his girlfriend.
Topic to avoid: brother's lost his job (didn't find this out till I was walking back to the train station with the parents). It's really too bad, he liked his job. It was probably because he'd been sick two weeks in two months, which really isn't his habit, but they apparently didn't realise that.
Anyway, the dinner was so lovely. There was a lot of alcohol, which explains my current state. But oh god the food. North sea shrimp with potato crisp, potato puree, buttermilk foam and cherry beer sauce. Veal sweetbreads with fennel in a duvel (beer) sauce, spring lamb with celery in a different beer sauce and a chocolate and cherry candies dessert. With wine. Lots of wine. Also cava. Such nice wine.
My tummy is the happiest right now.

Jobwise all is going well. Promotion is in sight and I'm in a probation period right now (till July). Lots of work, but I enjoy because it's not just taking calls like I've been doing for the past years. There's translation work, stuff that challenges my technical side, I get to send team-wide mails to remind them of procedures, I get to train new people... It all shows they trust me and have confidence in me, which is amazing and is doing me a world of good. I love it, really.

On the other hand, the question remains of how long I'll still be there. I'm really pushing myself (past depression, past listlessness, past whatnot) into getting my driving license and once I have this, I really need to, want to start looking for jobs in/near Cardiff. I want to move. I need to move.
In that same light, Nikki and I are getting married soon. Soon being a relative term, but... We are, if everything goes according to plan, going to request to register when I'm there in March and then actually get married in August. There are no words to describe how excited I am. We've been together for 7.5 years, I love her more than anything. It's time. This is, above anything else, what I want to do.
We're probably not going to invite many people, if any at all. We both see getting married (well, civil partnered, thank you UK) as an intensely private thing and we're going to treat it as such. We can't realistically afford a big party anyway.

This is my life, it is awesome. Except for the depression, but that'll go away.
feywood: Dean Winchester with a mouth full of food ((Dean) food!)
I'm spending a long weekend at my parents (and typing this on their qwerty keyboarded laptop, so typing is frustrating and slow) and it feels very odd. On the one hand, it definitely isn't like when I lived here and I'm not expected to do chores, on the other hand, I feel much more willing to do them (even the ones I don't do at home).
Most peculiar.

Spent Christmas eve here with parents, brother and his girlfriend. Foie gras, fondue and pictionary. And a massive amount of sex and cock jokes. Oh my. Also a lot of wine, this may have had something to do with it.
My brother turned out to know me quite well, present wise. He got me all of little britain and a book of cute amigurumi patterns. It's so fucking adorable. Then again, I did score massive points by getting him the magnetic thinking putty. I don't think he's let go of it yet. Don't know if I'm ever going to top that.

Christmas was... difficult. Large family party at my uncle's, too many people. My social battery was drained in a good two hours. I tried to keep it nice and polite and didn't resort to whining at mum about going home, but it was all I could do not to be running away from the table all the time to go and hide.
On the other hand, the food was amazing. Om nom nom bambi.

And now I've slept a lovely sleep, mum's off to work and dad has made croissants from scratch. Then lunch with leftovers (smoked eel on red beet/apple puree! raw tuna with raw courgette and ginger mayonaise! parsnip soup!) and then I go home again for a few more days off to very quietly celebrate my birthday. Good times.
feywood: Merlin in the woods ((Marvin) So depressed)
Just a quick meme because it entertained me and I'm trying to stave off a whiny "wah wah my life sucks" mood.

Your job is now your Time Lord name. The last digit of your phone number is the current regeneration you are in. The nearest clothing item to your right is now the most notable item in your current wardrobe. The last person you texted is your current companion. Your favorite word is now your catchphrase.

Name: The Helpdesk
Regeneration: 4th.
Notable clothing: A teal slightly frilly tunic (how fearsome will I be, oh my)
Companion: [personal profile] shanaqui (bestest companion, yes)
Catchphrase: Defenestrate